downloaded "From Beirut to Jerusalem" by Thomas Friedman in preparation for PS2255
LOTR the two towers officially on hiatus
next four days will be spent either preparing for school or meeting up with people, anything to get me off the computer, off my bed, back into some sort of reasonable and acceptable school-ish routine.
i have also decided to stop bringing my laptop to school, it hinders productivity in ways you don't even notice

breaks in school:
tuesday after 12
wednesday after 12 on odd weeks
whole of thursday
alternate fridays

sole priority during these 'breaks' given to:
webcasting math module
finishing readings before lectures
extra readings or research for essays
internship research

i feel like i'm putting too much on myself, but also i also feel like if i trust myself and really try my best, i'll be alright. and if i really am alright, i think that will just be a huge stepping stone for me in my self-confidence, however cheesy and lame that sounds. not that i have issues being confident around people but doubting my capabilities when it comes to several areas is a problem i have. so if i am alright, if i prove to myself i can do it, then that'd be amazing.

on the other hand, if i'm not alright, i don't really know what's going to happen.