sitting two storeys below Gus as he has lessons upstairs
and i am down here drowning in nausea

puking makes everything better
purging
both literal and metaphorical i suppose
what does the body purge???
i puked out my egg sandwich but i had thought that it was quite tasty when i ate it

i cannot be more grateful that Gus has been faithfully by my side this entire time
driving me to doctor after doctor, telling me to shut up when i needed to shut up
telling the doctor everything about my recent medical history while i lie sedated

a better boyfriend i could not ask for

but in exactly 2 weeks i'll have to say goodbye to him
this knowledge usually hits me at random, random times
i imagine i might not even want him to come to the airport because
what if i cannot let him go?

i love him so much

fb chat with him atm:

gus: i'm super hungry eh
gus: my stomach growled so loud brandon heard
siyi: hahahaha what he say
gus: he was like what the
siyi: lol i didn't finish my sandwich
siyi: you can have some
gus: sweet

after he is done we are going to pick Nat up from science, and then go to Holland V to meet Jan, which will be nice, gus, nat, jan and i. just like old times. i want this nausea to fade immediately so that i can have a good time meeting up with them.

time to pray