been thinking if i enjoy living on my own
yes and no
but i think yes. i would want to get my own place if i could in the near future
i would have to live overseas for that but it would be pretty great i think
but i would miss my parents so much. i don't like missing them
i don't like missing Gus

two nights ago i went over to janine's apartment near the gare
5 girls live there
they cooked dinner for me and it was asian and it was great
so thankful
they made their couch a bed for me to sleepover and it was fun
i want to go back soon

been working on my french because i realised i don't have much time left
also because i have french exams coming up soon

snowboarding this weekend
i want to be really good but there just isn't enough time
if i enjoy it enough maybe i will go back to singapore later
just to have some time on the mountains

whatever it is: 9 days until Gus is here
i'm so excited my heart flutters just thinking about it
and the phrase 'can't wait' quadruples in significance
feel like my whole body is a neon sign flashing 'can't wait'

i can't