i sat on a boat in the river that wasn't flowing
because i wanted to find you
and the water seemed to understand because it was capable of
drowning things, concealing them under its feet. a good place to hide.
i looked into its murky depths and finally, there you were,
holding your breath on the riverbed, your eyes shining

you were so beautiful
but we both knew that i would drown trying to get to you
before i could touch you i would be
more than the fair share of water a human should be

if you cried watching this from below
i wouldn't be able to tell

i decide not to try and go home
i am not sure you're worth all that