how come everybody says 'you're stronger than you think' but they never consider that you might almost definitely be weaker than you think as well?

i had it in my hands but i wanted to hold onto it so badly
i crushed it
it fell to pieces around my feet
i've been trying to pick it up ever since but it's been cutting me
little stabs
i've been bleeding

an accurate description of this feeling according to me:

like i have no intestines
like every step i take, i could put my foot 3m into the ground
deflated

if you are famous you never run out of affection

everyday that i wait is another day i shrink

is it so bad if the world ended? i used to have all these things to look forward to. these hopes built a mountain beneath our feet that i believed would carry us up and above the reach of destruction, la fin du monde, 21st december. now i've toppled back to the ground. the mountain is gone. i used to be deathly afraid that it wasn't just some over-sensationalized myth, that on the 21st everything i've wanted in life would be subsumed by a gigantic tsunami. but now i've graduated to ambivalence. i don't want to die but i don't want to feel this either. everything feels like an abrupt ending