today i said to you "no good deed goes unpunished. i'm scared of doing the good thing, of being nice because what's the point? i'll still get hurt. it isn't fair. i'm trying to protect myself sometimes when i think about not doing what is right/being nice and there's nothing wrong with that"

and you said "listen to what you are saying. you want to protect yourself. you want to be in control. but you can't. only God can control these things"

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"my mirror disappoints me / am i the only one?"

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tell me your story
give me a reason to grant you pardon
excuse you
forgive you

God doesn't need reasons to forgive us
but unfortunately right now i am not God or godly
and i'm glad God isn't one of us

you can't just run away and act like you've done nothing wrong
i don't believe in karma
but i believe in justice
i just need to know if i own the hand that will deal it