here is the problem with low self-esteem. i don't know if it's something that develops after a traumatic incident, or it has to always be there. can you have high self-esteem and suddenly have a low one? if you have high self-esteem doesn't that imply that traumatic incidents would not affect you as traumatically? if you feel like you are a confident person, what do you think it takes to knock. you. down?

when you have low self-esteem i suppose what is beautiful
is having eyes on you -- doesn't matter what kind of eyes
eyes that are on your face, eyes that are on your breasts, on your ass
as long as they are on you,
when you have low self-esteem,
it seems beautiful

it makes you feel good because you thought you weren't worth anything
someone or something in the past told you that you were shit
and you weren't deserving of being looked at in the way you should be
(that is, eyes on your eyes)
so now, you accept whatever eyes you can get
and then
whatever smile
whatever line
whatever touch
whatever kiss
whatever

because it makes you feel good
because it makes you feel wanted
because it makes you feel worth something, even though that something
is not what you want to be worth

when in fact it should make you feel disgusted
it should make you feel angry
it should make you feel dirty
it should make you feel objectified and offended

because what you are worth is the ability
to reject the eyes that are resting on your cleavage
to be repelled by the eyes that travel down south
to pick and choose from all the eyes, the ones that look into your eyes only
and from that action
produce
a real smile

you see that comes when you have high self-esteem
the question is how do you get there