I'm trying to summon strength. Any strength. And patience and appreciation and compassion. I'm tired of myself but I'm pretty much trapped. What do I do

Tomorrow I want to lock myself at bishan library and read my readings on public policy, as well as foreign policy and revise my French. Tomorrow will be awesome. Eagles at night, I'm super psyched, I think it will be a much needed boost and break from the monotony of life. It'll be good. Can't wait.