to give, and give, and give. and then to hold back. just once. not even to take, but simply... to not give. and then to have all prior incidences of giving evaporate into smoke. sure, we shouldn't expect anything in return for giving. i don't expect you to give me the value equivalent of what i've managed to give to you. but surely, i can expect appreciation? even if it's just a tiny bit?

that's why i give isn't it? to know i'm making some sort of change or helping in some sort of way that can be appreciated? just. some appreciation.