on one hand, I really, really can't wait to go to Bristol. on the other hand, classes in NUS are shaping up nicely, and my whole family is here, as well as my friends. so leaving really will be bittersweet, but I know I must leave. this is not an indecision incident, this is a reflection. not the first goodbye I will say, I am sure, but I want to leave and be brimming with anticipation for what is to come. optimism and positivity go a long way. if you keep allowing yourself to speak the words that define your situation as a sad and lonely one, then it shall be. I don't want to be like that.