just came back from tennis. it was longer and more tiring than usual, but fun nonetheless. Gus came with Shaun, then later on a couple more of his friends. so we played round robin doubles! i hope i don't ache tonight, not because i don't wanna be more fit but because it always wakes me up in the middle of my sleep. earlier in the day i was also unfortunately trapped in my car with an aedes mosquito. or anopheles. the one with the black and white striped legs. i remember being confused as to wtf it was because of its legs. it blended into the black dashboard and looked like white dust. and after awhile i realised it was a mosquito - a disease carrying mofo - and freaked out

after tennis we went to eat at old airport road! love that place. so near to the new house!!! people seriously considering weight gain, just go there

currently i'm being paranoid about Gus driving home. i wish there was a camera installed in the car that would let me watch his journey so i don't feel afraid of something happening. was talking to Tammy about it the other day (we have been meeting up) and i said, sometimes i don't see the point of living if in the end everything can be taken away in just a second. what is the point of building up all these experiences only to have them be snatched at any moment. and we didn't come to a conclusion what to think about death, except that we were afraid, we were unconvinced about the certainty of heaven waiting for us (i.e. the possibility of hell welcoming us instead) and if so, then it seems impossible for us to live the lives that will get us into heaven. and if that is so, then what do we do

the other thing i wanted to talk about was Tin Pei Ling. if you all haven't kept up with general elections news, she is the latest PAP candidate to run for marine parade grc. MY GRC. dear god she's only 7 years older than me and wanting to enter parliament, her oh-so-impressive "senior advisory at ernst & young" career less than 10 years under her belt. she has a whole bunch of pictures online where she basically gives some pretty lian poses plus a video on youtube of her stomping her feet & whining. WOW, PAP, you really really really scraped the bottom of the barrel this time. furthermore she's definitely going to be elected because the PAP is for sure going to win marine parade grc. my parents have voted once in their lives living in this area. so some inexperienced ah lian is going to "represent generation Y" in parliament. that is one GRC backdoor, add to it the fact that she is married to Lee Hsien Loong's principal private secretary. SO FAIR AH

she also said this: widening income gap is not the responsibility of the government.

fuck, if it's not their responsibility then what the hell do we need the government for. people don't need a government that is not going to help the poor & needy, who don't even think it's their responsibility. the government is not a separate entity from the people. their actions resound in every aspect of civilian life. how poor some people are in Singapore is truly one of our society's greatest failures and greatest shames. it's something to be embarrassed of you know. perhaps it is not the responsibility of the government to bridge the gap, but they should be responsible for the gap being there in the first place. how can 80 year old women be cleaning toilets and your president, who doesn't do a shit, get paid $4 million? should a government be more concerned with running a country analogous to a company, or be more concerned with helping those who need help?

ANSWERS, PLEASE, TIN PEI LING. show me your skillz