had quite an enjoyable past few days, spread out between family, friends... not school but i guess that's why it was enjoyable??? ha

sick of studying but i have to do it because the only thing worse than studying is working

i do not, at this moment, equate any form of career-driven opportunities as relevant to the critical 'self-discovery' element of one's 20s. in fact i look more to the career-averse activities in life as teaching more of a lesson than career-driven ones do

last night there were emotions and things i couldn't handle and things that made me feel like punching a wall but about two hours later i realised how impulsive i get, how desperate i am to justify all my ridiculous feelings within the five minutes of feeling them. not only that but the growing paranoia i began to recognize, i managed to subdue. quite naturally i realised i would be worrying about nothing

tammy said this to me which is: why worry about things that haven't happened? which is pretty cliché and lots of people say it but my question is this. aren't you a fool if you could have foreseen the bad things to come but you didn't?