actually also something i love doing is playing the piano and here are some recordings i have taken of me playing the piano. i know i am not very good but i don't fancy myself as very awful either. in fact i am quite proud of what kind of sounds i can produce through the piano. it is one of the few things that makes me feel good about myself except on the days where i mess up very badly. but anyway i don't usually read scores or anything, most of this is played by ear or by only looking at chords. i understand i have a very 'church' way of playing which i have been trying to break out of but is not easy, but i am trying. i have considered going for improv piano lessons because i feel like i do lean more towards that but at the same time i feel like i do not have enough 'soul' to make the lessons worth it. and why would you need lessons if you were really improvising