was doing workouts everyday but took a break the past 2 days because i'm not sure if this aching in my muscles is something that should be left alone or pushed further to alleviate.

tonight we went for GD's concert and i was thinking about why i like GD... i suppose it might be because the first time i watched him in the bad boy video i remember saying to Gus "ugh i hate this g dragon damn gross" because he had his weird hair and he had this way of rapping and walking and dancing that struck me as so unlikable simply because it was different.. and then he just continued doing his thing like wearing skirts or dying the two halves of his hair different colours or making them dreadlocks and making crazy videos and catchy music and he wasn't any much different from the first time i saw the bad boy video. so if i had to say it it would just be because it seems like he doesn't give a fuck what the trends are or what is popular nowadays or what he is expected to look/be like he just IS what he is and he makes that his armour and i think that's why i like him

also another thing i thought about at the concert was "do you really want to like him?" i thought this while scanning the crowd and finding that they were made out largely of very young girls or people i would never consider myself clicking with... i thought, are you really going to be one of them. but i suppose if i was to just be totally honest with myself, i love his music, & i love who he is as an entertainer and performer. if i lied to myself and convinced myself that i don't like him, how different is that from someone who convinces themselves they DO like whatever band/artist for whatever reasons (e.g. bc someone u like likes them too)? anyway why deprive myself of an indulgence that truly makes me feel good & happy? he is a swag machine that's all

i think i need to start waking up earlier. when i sleep in i end up eating one meal a day bc of laziness