this is the most unproductive recess week i've had in my four years of university

been doing yoga ~fairly~ regularly
after yoga i feel like i have a strong body that i'm starting to be more thankful for
can't wait for the day i can touch my toes with my knees locked
i don't even know what that feels like other than pain

always thinking about a lot of things but when i blog i forget everything
o rite
life is changing
great

literally i can't imagine what life will be like 1 year from now. i feel so afraid and so apprehensive about the future and if i could sum it up in one word, it is: helpless

but i guess i should be excited about things to come

i told gus once university ends and work starts i don't even understand what there is to look forward to
feel like the next thing that will excite me a lot is when i get pregnant maybe which is years away
in between then it just feels like i'm saving money for that moment, weird
gotta start forcing myself to feel happy with the present
feel happy with the people around me
feel happy with the things i can do with my brain and my body

grad trip plans altered drastically because of work
feel pretty sian about it but have adapted and come up with a different plan
my #1 priority for grad trip is to snowboard as much as i can
have been looking up year-round ski resorts and found that they are all located in europe
might make a trip back there just for snowboarding
can feel that my excitement to snowboard outweighs my apprehension at flight + cost + whatever
also want to get my own snowboard because i can't help but think that it might be my last proper snowboarding trip and i don't want to do it with some shitty ass rented board that has zero flexibility
also if i have my own board maybe in the future i will be reminded to use it and take trips and have fun instead of being weighed down and worried by work and life in general

something i actually really like doing is driving around with music i love at the moment playing really, really loud especially songs with super beats and bass

songs that perform exceptionally well in this situation are songs that make me feel like snoop dogg the most

god i really have nothing to talk about nowadays bye